a LOT has happened...

so its the month of november, i havent blogged eventhough so much is going on...

ive been stressing writing this blog because of all the things im seeing, feeling, and experiencing.

nicaragua is on fire. its the only way i can even describe it.

i dont want to take sides as to whos right and whos wrong i have no right to say what needs to be done here when the peace of this country doesnt affect me directly. i could simply leave nicaragua, go back to my shell in the states and just write about what i saw but i would've never felt what the nicaraguan people are feeling right now.

i am in between two worlds... more like many worlds. my students, which have become some of the most important people to me are part of a world called poor&helpless, my family is split into two worlds, liberales and sandinistas, political affiliations that in my opinion take us all down the same road, despair, hopelessness, and placing our faith in man when the only one that has never failed us is our God. the people of nicaragua are in the world of confusion, despair, disillusion, violence, hatred, love being preached with a rifle in one hand and a rock in another, the world of overabundance and vulgar disparities... the world as it is and nowhere close to the world as it should be... yet i will never lose sight that the Kingdom of God is still present here... no matter how much hatred is placed in the hearts of the people, the power of LOVE, love that is not preached but acted upon, love that is not on shirts or banners but in our homes and nations... there will never be an abundance of love but with just a small amount of love present much can be done, much can be fought, much can be defended, much can be FORGIVEN, much can be learned...

as i write this blog in my living room, i am listening to news... not on tv but down my block. three blocks from my house a guy was stabbed, no one helped him, they just stared, im listening to bazookas, i see cars, trucks, and buses filled with angry people with sticks, guns, and red or red and black flags... managua's rotondas are taken, the police is idle, the people dont know whats going on, daniel ortega is absent, all government offices are pushing and forcing their employees, sandinista or not to join the "struggle" and go out to the street to defend the sandinista vote.

im not much of a journalist so look it up yourself... el nuevo diario, la prensa, washington post, google managua, nicaragua elections...

as the hills of california burn, the streets of managua are also in flames.

its as if the fire in our souls has been transferred to our homes and people's lives are in danger... the phone in my host home has not stopped ringing with news good and bad...

i cant even count how many human rights violations are taking place right now its all too much and from both sides of the spectrum.

both liberales and sandinistas are acting like children, fighting for what i consider one of the greatest sins, the deep desire of POWER.

as arundhati roy wrote:
To never simplify what is complicated or complicate what is simple. To respect strength, never power. Above all, to watch. To try and understand. To never look away. And never, never, to forget.

feel what you wish. but one thing i ask is to learn to feel for those who hurt, for those who suffer for a cause that has never brought them true happiness just confusion... just the abuse of power and the neglect of basic human rights...

thats it from me in managua nicaragua.

if you pray, pray for this nation.

if you think, think of the situation in this nation.

if you feel, feel for the weak of this nation.

if you speak, learn to act on behalf of this nation.

read this if you want to know more:
http://www.economist.com/world/americas/displaystory.cfm?story_id=12607338&fsrc=rss