es por tu gracia.

this song is a great way to start my 5 months of craziness.

Cuando nadie me ve, en la intimidad
Donde no puedo hablar más que la verdad
Donde no hay apariencias
Donde al descubierto queda mi corazón
Allí soy sincero,alli mi apariencia de piedad se va
Alli es tu gracias lo que cuenta
Tu perdon lo que sustenta para estar de pie.

Y no podria dar la cara si no fuera porque soy revestido de la gracias y la justicia del Señor.
Si me vieran tal cual soy,
se enterarian que es Jesús.
Lo que han visto reflejado en mi,
tan sólo fue su luz.
Es por tu gracia y tu perdón,
que podemos ser llamados instrumentos de tu amor.
Es por tu gracias y tu perdón,
mi justicia queda lejos de tu perfección.

in English this song basically says that it is through God's grace and love that we can even be called his servants. The song talks a lot about what we are as mere humans and how when we're all alone, all our facades escape us and all that's left is a raw "us". Therefore what people see shining through us and the "good deeds" they see us performing are nothing but expressions of Him and His love. nothing from me, all from Him.

So here's a little bit about life before I leave to Nicaragua for the second time...

I've been in LA for a little less than two weeks trying to soak up as much as I can and spending time with my family and friends. I've been trying to find a core to what these next 5 months will be like for me. I always say I want to be uncomfortable, shaken, moved, transformed yet I fall right back in the cracks of comfort and then I do a little self loathing while I remind myself of my selfishness.

I pray that God will fill every moment of these next 5 months so that I will merely be a spectator to God's work. I'm not planning on saving the world, getting a spiritual high and then coming back home to convict people of their comforts... I'm going to find God in the ungodliest places, I'm going to seek what is unlike anything I've ever felt, I'm going to sit, listen, and shut up. To be with my God and to be with the human expressions of my God.

Pray for me if you'd like... know that I'll need it more than ever.

Pray for this: freedom. in every sense of the word.

May Abba fill you with His love.

que se sienta su amor...


.dory.